Its seems as if the life has been sucked out of me. Every workout I do this week has been filled with negative thoughts and major self-doubts about my Half Ironman. I have studied and memorized the Vineman cut-off times and know the elevation gain like the back of my hand. Even though I have been reassured by friends and family that I will be ok, it still has me worried. Perhaps it's burnout of Ironman training or just race nerves but I am ready for it to end. I want to go back to working out for fun and not have to have a piece of paper tell me what my workout is going to be for the day/week. If I miss a workout I don't want to have to feel guilty or think about how it will screw up the rest of my training.
However more than anything I want to be able to include a 70.3 race bib on our wall. And I did include the Iron Horse bib up their with the others, I just happened to place the Livestrong one on top of it because those were the ladies I was really doing it for!
Count the bibs? Who's winning? Oh but wait, it's not a competition.
Amanda, What motivates you? Is it racing for others? Is it competition? Is it to challenge yourself? Is it a DNF? The hardest part about triathlon is not always the physical race, but the mental one. This includes your training and on race day. There are ups and downs throughout this journey. You have to make sure you stomp those negative thoughts down, and just keep going! It is not easy, but the body will do what the mind believes. Have faith in yourself and your training, and stay positive!!! (Even if you have to fake it for a few miles.). See you soon!
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