Sometimes I wish I could get a "do-over" with children during their infant days. I just spent the last five days with my little nephew. I truly enjoyed every single moment and it really made me sad to leave him. Why couldn't I be that relaxed when my own kids were born? It makes me mad that the depression and anxiety I suffered after giving birth ruined some of those first mommy/infant moments.
If I could, I would tell myself to slow down and relax about being a Mom. I would tell myself to cuddle them more because soon they won't want you to. I would stop worrying about what the damn books say or what the "experts" advise and just go with what feels right. I would continue to remind myself that they will never again be this age and to savor every single moment.
It is hard huh??? We always love holding other people's infants because we get sleep and don't see all the hard moments. I remember that you said that your first baby was really colicky which all ours have been. That makes it so hard to enjoy every second when they cry non-stop. I hear you about trying to enjoy every second! You do look really great holding a newborn.
ReplyDeleteThanks Kristin! I have to give you major props for doing it over and over especially if they were all colicky. Though now that I look back over the years I often wonder if it really was colic. Hope all is well.
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